Eros and Thymos, Failure and Success

J.D. Phillips

18 April, 2003

Rethymnon

 

How does it happen that there are people who do not understand mathematics? . . . If mathematics invokes only the rules of logic, such as are accepted by all normal minds; if its evidence is based on principles common to all men, and that none could deny it without being mad, how does it come about that so many persons are here refractory? . . . That not everyone can understand mathematical reasoning when explained appears very surprising when we think of it.

—Henry Poincare,

Mathematical Creation

 

 

  1. From the Margins.
  2. "How does it happen?"
  3. Pursuits.
  4. Method.
  5. Tyranny.
  6. Utility.
  7. Teachers.
  8. Students.
  9. Anxiety and Inquiry.
  10. Pleasure, Pain, and Suffering.
  11. Desire and Deception.                                                                            

 

 

 

From the Margins.

Who has ever, in all these millennia, seen men acting solely for the sake of advantage? What's to be done with the millions of facts that attest to their knowingly—that is, with full awareness of their true interests—dismissing these interests as secondary and rushing off in another direction, at risk, at hazard, without anyone or anything compelling them to do so, but as if solely in order to reject the designated road, and stubbornly, willfully carving out another—a difficult, absurd one—seeking it out virtually in the dark?

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     It is a very great pleasure, indeed, to join you today. Thank you for the opportunity.

     Before I turn to a consideration of Poincare's quote, I should note that the sorts of institutions and departments that we all come from are decidedly different. Those of you at large European research universities are up to something markedly different with your students than we who are at small, American liberal arts colleges are with our students. My remarks, then, are grounded in a particular understanding of undergraduate education that is part of a very old liberal arts tradition, a tradition that, alas, is becoming increasingly marginal in the wider higher education landscape. In my department for instance, our teaching activities are focused mostly on exploiting our disciplinary expertise as research mathematicians to prepare students for post-graduate studies in mathematics (this is easy) while at the same time trying to overcome the significant limitations this same disciplinary expertise imposes as we try to serve the much broader aims of a liberal arts education (this is difficult). And I note that by liberal arts education, I do not mean mathematics classes for humanities majors. I mean something rather different, which will hopefully begin to emerge, slowly, in the body of my talk. All of this is to say that I hope my remarks have some bearing on your own teaching.

     I should also mention that I view my remarks today as a report on part of a larger and on-going project, funded by Wabash College's Center for Inquiry. As such, I would welcome comments on this talk that might inform my larger project, and indeed, I look forward to conversations with you this weekend and beyond. Yours is a new group for me, and I thank you for your warm collegiality and for the prospects of new horizons of discourse for me.

     Finally, I hope that you will detect a gleefully polemical tone in this talk. This is a bit heavy-handed, I suppose, but it is in the higher service of my awkward attempts to enact the dialectic. Thus, I will focus my remarks on, even exploit, those few areas where we might disagree, and not dwell on places of widespread agreement.

 

 

"How does it happen?"

Let no one ungeometrical enter here.

—on the gate of Plato's Academy.

 

Geometrical inquiry . . . . then, will be that which draws the soul to truth and produces a philosophical disposition for tending upward where we now tend downward, as we ought not.              —Plato

                                                                        The Republic

 

     Indeed, how does it happen, that most people don't understand mathematics? The Greek root of the word mathematics translates roughly as "that which is learnable." One can come to know something in mathematics; one can learn it unlike, say, politics, where one simply weighs competing opinions. Mathematics is thus paradigmatic of learning itself; as such, the ancients understood mathematics to be a necessary propaedeutic to philosophy, as the quotes above suggest. And what is more human than the appetite to learn, the desire to know, philo-sophy?

     It is instructive, but not surprising, to note that while Meno's slave boy learns about geometry and numbers with Socrates, by the time we reach Poincare such learning is no longer on the horizon of conceivability, and we are reduced simply to wondering about what went wrong. While Plato inquired directly about the nature, the eidos, of number, unmediated by technique or method, by the time we reach Husserl, sedimentation—the inevitable result of the march of the scientific project to higher states of abstraction, rendering its intelligible origin forgotten, nearly inaccessible—makes this all but impossible. What went wrong? Or, as Poincare (a trope, of course, for a commonly held position amongst mathematicians today) puts it, "How does it happen?" this failure in mathematics. Is learning mathematics too difficult for most people? Do students today resist learning mathematics out of various psychopathologies that represent a sickness, a crisis, in our larger culture? Or is it just that there aren't enough Socrates' around anymore to teach them?

     These are hard questions. And I note here that they are especially difficult without attending carefully to the subtle distinctions between the ancient conceptions of logisitik and arithmos. But this would take us too far afield for this talk. And in any event, it would be hard to improve on Jacob Klein's work on this in his masterly Greek Mathematical Thought and the Origin of Algebra.

     And this seems like the right place to mention my good fortune on rereading Camus' The Fall and Dostoyevsky's Notes from Underground as I was preparing this talk. The form of this talk emerged as I read these two novels, as will soon become apparent.

 

 

Pursuits.

Because all I could do was only play around with words, dream a bit in my mind.                                                              Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

And the worst of it is that I have begun to justify myself before you. And even worse, that I am making this remark now. But enough, or there will be no end to it: whatever I say or do will be cheaper and nastier than what has gone before. . .                                                         Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     Mathematicians pursue proof. But when we teach mathematics, we do not pursue proof. Nor, generally, do we direct our students toward the pursuit of proof. As mathematics teachers, our energies are directed elsewhere, toward what a friend of mine calls the assertive pursuit of scientifically intentioned problem sets.

     Compare this with the situation in other disciplines. One of my philosopher friends, for instance, is a Plato scholar. So not only is he engaged, at least in part, in scholarship as he prepares for class each day by simply reading The Republic, his very act of teaching is a philosophical act—I'm thinking here of Socrates the seducer and midwife.

     I know of no area of current mathematics research that is regularly a part of the undergraduate mathematics curriculum. Still, in spite of this, I suppose that, strictly speaking, the pursuit of proof is still possible in undergraduate mathematics. But, alas, this possibility actually realizes itself only in those rare activities that are entirely marginal in the landscape of undergraduate mathematics education. More on this shortly. First, though, I should remind you of what actually goes on in undergraduate mathematics.

     Mostly, what goes on is conditioning, as above, via the pursuit of problem sets. Jacob Klein's colleague, Eva Brann, describes this activity as the asking and answering of sham questions. Of course, a genuine question is one that the questioner doesn't know the answer to; in fact, a genuine question is nothing more than the desire for an answer. It leaves uncertainty in its wake and generates genuine conversation in which none of the participants knows the answer, but all desire it. A sham question—a problem set, for instance—on the other hand, is one that the questioner already knows the answer to, and hence, cares very little about; for instance, from a typical problem set in the calculus, "What is the derivative of the sine function?" And this—namely using problem sets (sham questions) to condition—is what mathematicians do when we teach. It bears no resemblance to what we do as mathematicians. So there is a tension, then, between our two primary activities—"doing" mathematics and teaching mathematics.

     By the way, as an aside, I note that this tension is present even in very sophisticated classes at the graduate level. For instance, consider John Thompson's celebrated theorem: "A finite group with a fixed point free automorphism of prime order is nilpotent." Now, it's certainly true that most of us couldn't prove this theorem on the spot. But it is true that we could all simply look up the proof and follow it. More importantly, we all know it to be true; it is simply not the object of our desires—you don't desire to know what you already know. And in this sense, the only way you can ask about something as sophisticated as even Thompson's theorem, is as a problem set, not as a genuine question.

     I think this tension is not resolvable. Sham questions are a necessary part of mathematics education, and they necessarily interfere with genuine questions. I do, however, think we can respond constructively to it. One way is by reading books—like Euclid's Elements—in addition to simply working through problem sets in textbooks. Books like this, ancient mathematical books, invite reflection in a way that modern textbooks do not and cannot. Ancient synthetic mathematics is different from modern mathematics (a la Jacob Klein). It systematically allows for, even invites, the sort of radical and profound questions about the nature of mathematics and mathematical objects that students care about. But more on this later.

 

 

Method.

When one has no character one has to apply a method.

—Albert Camus,

The Fall

 

     In the absence of genuine questions, that is, in the absence of actual inquiry, a fetish for method invades our thinking and our teaching. After all, when "teaching" becomes nothing more than revealing what we already know to those who do not yet know, what's left but method? Classroom management, projects, computer applications, textbooks, and so on, become the heart of the matter. The professor merely searches for the most effective technique for dispensing information; he or she becomes coordinator, facilitator, and manager of "materials". And ultimately the students themselves become material, to be shaped, cast, and manufactured by the professor. Of course, no one wants to be used in this way, to be materials; students rightly resist it. And so we respond with renewed and intensified reliance on materials, a feverish pursuit of a better method. And students dig in their heels and resist even more ferociously. Ad infinitum.

     The failures that haunt the mathematics landscape are apparent. But clearly, the project of "fixing" them is mistaken insofar as it relies on this or that method to repair what it imagines is broken, instead of attending to the cultivation of certain habits of mind proper to legitimate inquiry, to mathematics. Of course, some problems can't be "fixed". And even more importantly, not everything that we don't like is a problem. Maybe it's good that most people resist mathematics; it's not a problem, and there's nothing to "fix". Our failure is most acute, and its effects are most pernicious, when we forget that intellectual virtue, that learning, emerges only from these habits of mind, and that it is resistant to prescriptive methods or techniques. Thus enters Eros and thymos and their commingling. But more on this later.

 

 

Tyranny.

Good God, what do I care about the laws of nature and arithmetic if, for one reason or another, I don't like these laws, including the "two times two is four"? Of course, I cannot break through this wall with my head if I don't have the strength to break through it, but neither will I accept it simply because I face a stone wall and am not strong enough. . . Two times two will be four even without my will. Is that what you call man's free will?

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     It is a form of tyranny to treat students as course material, as a means and not an end. And as above, students, always smarter than we think they are, recognize when we treat them as a means, and they resist. But I think there's another, more fundamental, sort of tyranny that students often feel, a tyranny that we don't see at all, because it rules us so thoroughly. I'm thinking here of the tyranny of logical necessity, the tyranny that Dostoyevsky's underground man—and our most spirited (thymotic) students—refuse to submit to.

     I notice this spiritedness in my own children. They are still quite young, two and three-years-old, respectively. And they have a more difficult time acquiescing to the tyranny of the laws of nature than they do acquiescing to the rules that my wife and I set for them. Physical obstacles that interfere with play, nightfall and darkness ending play, tiredness and hunger, are all much more oppressive to them than are the seemingly arbitrary laws that my wife and I lay down. The laws of nature and the law of logical necessity are inflexible, unflinching. They are mightier than, and uncompromising toward, human will. But people don't like to have their will thwarted. At least with people, there's a chance the law will bend; you recognize your oppressor; your will might prevail. But logical necessity simply and completely snubs your will. If you fight, you will lose. You may give your assent and be governed by it, or you may dismiss it completely. But you cannot fight it.

     There's something naive and precious, even delusional and self-flattering, about mathematicians—Poincare and us—emoting about why people don't master mathematics. Small children know why. So did Dostoyevsky. But mathematicians don't. And so what of our students? By the time they reach us, they often conflate the tyranny of logical necessity with the tyranny of bad (often very bad) mathematics instruction (i.e., with tyrannical mathematics professors). And our precious emoting, as above, makes it even harder for us to recognize that we encourage this conflation. Our students feel oppressed by the tyranny, both of logical necessity and of us. But we see neither, and are left to wonder about simply "fixing" things.

 

 

Utility.

Nowhere else are vigorous efficacy and dreary operationalism so much each other's obverse, so that beauty is forfeited to blind efficiency. . . The paradox of instrumental learning—power wrecks pleasure—is a most serious problem of modern pedagogy that can be resolved only by making frequent returns to the intellectual presuppositions of such learning.

                                                                        —Eva T.H. Brann,

                                                                        Paradoxes of Education in a Republic

 

     One way we "fix" things is by cultivating an obsession with utility, both in what we teach and in how we teach. At its crudest, this obsession realizes itself in the view of mathematics as chiefly a useful and practical utensil. But of course, as an actual utensil, mathematics is useful mainly to the professional scientist, a complex and arcane world out of reach to most students. To these students the practicality of mathematics is relegated to the simplest of childish arithmetic. And so our obsession with utility is oppressive or banal to most students.

     Our obsession with utility is also seen in our relentless campaign to defend undergraduate education on the grounds that it guarantees both economic success and good citizenship. (Sociologists even tell us that the former might actually cause the latter!) The connection between love of money and love of knowing is unclear at best. And claims about guaranteeing good citizenship are even more puzzling. A school that devotes itself to authentic education, one that esteems freedom, is a radical and dangerous institution, as it systematically incorporates into its assumptions the possibility that eventually those whom it educates will turn away from all of the virtues it cherishes and embrace instead all that is subversive and threatening, to the school and to the state. That is, it is necessarily potentially self-undermining as it allows for the possibility of its own demise. Good citizenship? The state thought Socrates was such a good citizen that it executed him.

     Ultimately this obsession with utility in higher education is especially pernicious in that it nullifies our claim—a claim, ironically enough, unique to higher education—that a life devoted to actual inquiry, study, and thought is an end in itself.

     This obsession also guides how we teach. What could be more useful and practical than measuring our "effectiveness" at teaching the utility of mathematics? And so we flatter ourselves by "assessing student learning outcomes".  But of course, as Eva Brann puts it, "When learning is measured, the measurable is eventually what is taught." And the measurable is very easy to teach effectively.

 

 

Teachers.

They are free and hence have to shift for themselves; and since they don't want freedom or its judgments, they ask to be rapped on the knuckles, they invent dreadful rules. . . Each of us insists on being innocent at all costs, even if he has to accuse the whole human race and heaven itself.                                                                                                          Albert Camus,

The Fall

 

     After all of this, why would anyone want to teach mathematics? Even Plato's Gorgias takes a shot at us, saying that those who neglect philosophy for the busy-work of teaching mathematics are like the wooers of Penelope, who settled for her maids. And it gets worse!

     Education—especially an education in the liberal arts—is (and I will argue necessarily is) burdened with a number of conflicting tensions. For instance, there is the tension between the inexorable press of politics on education (from Meno asking Socrates "can virtue be taught" to "education for citizenship" in our own time—to say nothing of programs, from the NSF to the DOD, that reward achievement in mathematics based exclusively on mathematics' ability to serve political aims) against the freedom an education, especially a liberal arts education, both requires and aims for. By the way, understanding the tension like this—teaching virtue versus a liberal arts education's required (and aimed for) freedom—helps explain why conservative moralists, politically correct professors, and religious fundamentalists are up to the same thing, more or less, in education: straightening us out morally; teaching virtue. Politics indeed makes for very strange bedfellows. And in this case it means that the deep-seated desire to remain morally unchallenged itself challenges freedom. And of course as above, there is another tension, specific to mathematics: what we do as mathematicians bears little resemblance to what we do as mathematics teachers.

     A friend of mine likes to rant about the arrested emotional and intellectual development of anyone who views the teaching of mathematics as an end, especially the all-too-common banal sorts of busy-work that we often teach today. Imagine the level of depravity and confusion it takes to actually devote one's life to "teaching" mathematics in this fatuous way, more distraction than propaeduetic. I don't know if I agree with my friend. But I am sure that he's not completely wrong. And I know this from students, who all too often end up agreeing with my friend. It's no wonder then that these students resist.

 

 

Students.

Because I longed for eternal life, I went to bed with harlots and drank for nights on end. . . True debauchery is liberating because it creates no obligations. In it you possess only yourself.           

Albert Camus,

The Fall

 

But I repeat to you for the hundredth time: there is only one occasion, one only, when man may purposely, consciously choose for himself even the harmful and the stupid, even the stupidest thing—just so that he will have the right to wish the stupidest thing, and not be bound by the duty to have only intelligent wishes.                                             Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     So, what of these students? Do you remember when the so-called "reform" calculus was just coming in to fashion 15 years ago? I was a graduate student at the time, and so quite naturally, and quite naively, I observantly attended to its birth. Its most zealous proselytizers—of which there were legions—pitched it as a way to get around students' myriad algebraic infelicities by focusing on the deep, subtle and profound aspects of the calculus sans computation. Phlegmatic traditionalists thought it was all a game of smoke and mirrors, and balked. The calculus wars erupted. Papers, books, editorials, and letters to the editor were written. Conferences and workshops were convened. Careers were made. Some were ruined. But what of the students? Some of the initial fervor has mercifully subsided, but a core residue remains, a fine vantage point from which to inquire.

     Prior to learning, of course, is intentionality. That is, one must intend to learn before one can learn. One must desire to know before one knows. And what do calculus students desire? Naturally, students are not all alike. Some, a few perhaps, desire to know, but only in an inchoate way. And these, if the circumstances are right, might come to know the calculus. But most students, though, even very good students, do not desire to know the calculus. The mathematician's desires to understand the profound subtleties of mathematics—desires that have been stoked and cultivated over a bloody march of years of difficult study—are not students' desires. Students, young and spirited—like Dostoyevsky's underground man, full of will, full of thymos—do not yet know how to desire to know mathematics. Their desires lie elsewhere.

     If you listen to students, if you attend carefully to their words, the object of their desire begins to reveal itself. Students speak of the pleasure of doing well, of mastering a difficult subject, of the erotic desire driving them to complete a complex computation or proof that culminates in its intended object, of the thymotic desire for honor in having mastered something complex and difficult. So students desire the self-assertive pleasure of mastery, especially of a technically demanding subject like mathematics, and the honor bestowed on them when they succeed. And a great deal of effort on our part is spent in depriving them of this pleasure. What remains is anxiety.

 

 

Anxiety and Inquiry.

If pimps and thieves were invariably sentenced, all decent people would get to thinking that they themselves were constantly innocent.

                                                                        Albert Camus,

The Fall

 

We even feel it's too much of a burden to be men—men with real bodies, real blood of our own. We are ashamed of this; we deem it a disgrace, and try to be some impossible "general human". . . What made them imagine that man must necessarily wish what is sensible and advantageous?. . .Perhaps a normal man should be stupid, how do we know? Perhaps it's even very beautiful that way.                                         Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     There are, of course, many constructive ways to respond to this anxiety, to the many tensions I've already outlined. Here I'll only mention one, and leave the others for another time. One way then, to respond constructively to this tension and anxiety is with books. And this response is so uncommon as to be almost entirely marginal. So it seems like a good place to remind you of Abel's famous dictum:

 

            It appears to me that if one wants to make progress

            in mathematics one should study the masters.

 

     I should qualify this. Recall from above that mathematics is paradigmatic of all learning. And so built in to every mathematics class is the possibility that bracing and accompanying all of the other efforts in the class will be the purposeful attendance to nothing less than learning itself, (re)learning how to learn. This is hard to do if you're just pursuing problem sets. But it's not hard to do if you're reading, say, The Elements.

     Reading The Elements demands the student's careful attention to the details of actually working through the demonstrations. And this, in turn, opens up the conversation to the sorts of questions we're all familiar with. Why will those two circles intersect? Why is there only one triangle with this property? And so on. Of course, mathematics textbooks and problem sets might allow for these sorts of questions, but unfortunately most textbooks and problem sets answer these questions before students have a chance to actually struggle with them for themselves.

     But The Elements, as you know, inevitably generates another sort of genuine question—the question about the deductive apparatus and the axiomatic system itself. What is the difference between a postulate and a common notion? What is a point? Do points exist? Are the propositions true? Can you tinker with the axioms and still prove some of the propositions? If so, what recommends one set of axioms over another? I suppose good textbooks and problem sets can generate these sorts of questions, but it is rare.

     Ultimately, though, if you read The Elements attentively, you might get the feeling that Euclid is up to something more than just presenting "results" (as in a typical mathematics textbook), that he is actually working toward something: The prime number theorem? A commentary on the Platonic solids? An insight into the nature of logic and deduction? These are genuine questions. They demand genuine conversation. And this, in turn, stokes passion. [As an aside, I should note that it is this passion, by the way—the passion to find the truth about things, to satisfy the simple desire to know—that drives us as mathematicians, not the assigning and grading of problem sets.] And finally, all of this invites reflection on the nature of human learning, to say nothing of giving the student an authentic taste, not contrived, of what we actually do as mathematicians. Textbooks and problem sets—even the seemingly "sophisticated" activity of working through Thompson's nilpotence theorem—don't do this. Textbooks and problem sets can't do this. By the way, notice that the root of the word "sophisticated" is the same as the root of the word "sophistry".

     So certain books can generate precisely the sort of erotic uncertainty necessary for a genuine conversation that stokes the passion for mathematical discovery that drives us as mathematicians. This conversation, by the way, is part of a tradition that fosters habituation toward truth and beauty by first liberating students from slavish devotion to their own parochial opinions (opinions formed against the backdrop of nothing more than tribalism and bloodlines). Certain books, not just the pursuit of problem sets, are particularly well suited to this. This approach recognizes the "skills" and "competencies"—developed via the pursuit of problem sets—as means, subordinate to other ends, for instance, wisdom and freedom. And as above, the slavish devotion to technique and training that is part of the pursuit of problem sets mistakes these skills and competencies as ends, and thereby expresses contempt for wisdom and freedom. It is self-undermining insofar as the wisdom required to see through all this is grounded, at least in part, in mathematics.

     I don't mean to say that the pursuit of problem sets shouldn't be part of a mathematics education. In fact, it must be; remember, I claimed that the tension in mathematics is irresolvable. I am suggesting, though, that the anxiety can be tempered—and again, only in an entirely marginal way.

 

 

Pleasure, Pain and Suffering.

It's in despair that you find the sharpest pleasure, particularly when you are most acutely aware of the hopelessness of your position. . . [during the painful course of a toothache] your recognition of the whole array of natural laws, which you, of course, don't give a hoot about, but which nevertheless make you suffer, while nature itself doesn't feel a thing. They express your realization that there is no enemy to blame, yet there is pain.

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

After all, man may be fond not only of well-being. Perhaps he is just as fond of suffering? Perhaps suffering is just as much in his interest as well-being? . . . As for my personal opinion, it's even somehow indecent to love only well-being. Whether it's good or bad, smashing something is also very pleasant on occasion . . . I am convinced that man will never give up true suffering—that is, destruction and chaos. Why, suffering is the sole root of consciousness. . . Consciousness, for example, is infinitely nobler than two times two.

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     Have you ever noticed how unusual academics are? Students sure notice it. A friend of mine thinks that one of the primary purposes of the university is to provide gainful employment to people who otherwise would be unemployable. There is some truth to this.

     Why are academics so unusual, so abnormal? And what is it about them that students notice? I think they notice that professors, completely devoted and pious as they are to disciplinary expertise, to their arcane and narrow area of specialization, are alienated from the rest of intellectual life, from an authentic and full human life. Combinatorial group theory, or lattice gauge theory, or Chicano literature, or medieval Chinese poetry is not the proper end of a full human intellectual life. But we treat each of them, quite blindly, as if it were. In this way we are wounded. (And by the way, in this case we are quite like Oedipus: arrogant and clever, but quick to anger and self-pity, with a self-inflicted blindness. But let's keep our parents out of it!)

     Students see this wound, our pain, and our afflicted yearning for healing. Students, unlike us, recognize that the proper ends of intellectual life are not arcane and specialized disciplinary expertise. They yearn for something else, for something more; they resist overtures from the blind and wounded. And the way all of this plays out for students in mathematics is especially thorny. As I mentioned earlier there is the student's self-assertive pleasure in mastery, almost unique to mathematics among the disciplines. There is the sweet promise of Eros—the desire to know. And complicating it all is the seductive, and ultimately misleading, allure of the power of proof.

     The "certainty" of proof tricks us. Our unspoken desire for power, control, and autonomy leads us to flatter ourselves by taking the certainty of willfully fashioned proof (or demonstration, for the ancients) as knowledge. But as Socrates reveals, genuine proof, demonstration, is always negative. Defining virtue is hopeless. But you can recognize what virtue is not.

     So the pleasure of proving is seductive and often misleading. Recognizing this is painful and difficult. But from the effort, hopefully you emerge a little less foolish. And this places mathematics in a very privileged position, indeed. If we recognize it.

 

 

Desire and Deception.

You see, gentlemen, reason is unquestionably a fine thing, but reason is no more than reason, and it gives fulfillment only to man's reasoning capacity, while desires are a manifestation of the whole of life—I mean the whole of human life, both with its reason and with all its itches and scratches. . . Because all of man's purpose, it seems to me, really consists of nothing but proving to himself every moment that he is a man and not an organ stop! Proving it even at the cost of his own skin. . . . What is better—cheap happiness, or noble suffering? Well, which is better?

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground

 

     Ultimately, of course, intention precedes learning. As above, before you can know, you must desire to know. Students won't learn if they don't first intend to. So, how do we teach? Mostly we devote our energies to fiddling with curriculum, cooking up problem sets, fussing with course materials, tinkering with web and multi-media technologies, and the like. But we rarely think about students, how they learn, what their appetites are, how to cultivate habits of mind, the possibility of inquiry.

     So we flatter ourselves by treating our students as course material to be shaped by us, in our own image. It is a form of tyranny. But students are free, and they resist tyranny. Students' self-assertive desire for mastery (thymos), might eventually grow into a desire to know (Eros). Or, in response to tyranny, it might remain shunted by simply resisting, by drowning in adolescent rebellion.

     Learning is a mystery. How is it possible at all? But we are teachers of mathematics; we are supposed to know. To Socrates, of course, the ultimate foolishness is the willful belief in your own wisdom.

 

And finally, there are things he is afraid to reveal even to himself, and every decent man has quite an accumulation of them. In fact, the more decent the man, the more of them he has stored up. As regards myself personally, I have in my own life merely carried to the extreme that which you have never ventured to carry even halfway; and what's more, you've regarded your cowardice as prudence, and found comfort in deceiving yourselves.

                                                                                    Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

                                                                                    Notes from Underground